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Poetry #56: There Isn’t A Day That Goes By When I Don’t Think Of You

I miss your calm nature

With your silent mind

And your fast paced information downloading brain

I miss your pain free body

And the friend in you

I miss not needing anyone

And your blissful temperate nature

I miss the freedom in my mind

I miss the young girl who had the world in the palm of her hands

And the notes I wrote in the sands

I miss your calming presence

And your ability to sleep at night

I miss being okay on my own

I miss your purity

And meditating for hours on end

I miss the connection to my higher self

And spirit guides so close to this realm

I miss your silence

I miss your words of wisdom

At such a young age

So pure, so intelligent, so sweet

Then I went out into the world

To find who I am

All I wanted was love and peace

And I lost you

And went to hell

You saw things a young girl that no one should have to see

I’ve been crying for you for three years

How has time gone by

Without you

My former self

Traumatised

Addicted to pharaceuticals

With no options given

Laying in bed weak and hazy

Cottonwool head

That’s what I’m left with instead

I could cope with this lockdown

If I had my former self

I miss that girl

There isn’t a day that goes by

When I don’t think about you

Muscle tremors jolt my body

As I write this

In the depths of hell

I miss you

And one day I hope to find you again.

-Amber @DiosRaw 02/01/21 16:08PM

A Brief Overview Of The United Kingdom

A Brief Overview Of The UK ( The United Kingdom)

The United Kingdom is a state consisting of the historic countries of England, Wales and Scotland, as well as Northern Ireland. It is recognised and known for the home of both modern parliamentary democracy and the Industrial Revolution.

Two world wars and the end of empirical rule diminished its role in the 20th century, and the 2016 referendum vote to leave the European Union has raised significant questions and doubts about the country’s global role.

Nonetheless, the United Kingdom remains an economic and military power with political and cultural influence around the world.

History
The British descend from invaders and migrants, including Celts, Romans, Anglo-Saxons, Vikings, and Normans. In the 1950s and 1960s, people from former colonies in the Caribbean, Africa, and Asia came to the United Kingdom to work.

Sports and literature are among the United Kingdom’s cultural claims to fame. Soccer, rugby, cricket, boxing, and golf were all invented in Britain. And the U.K. has many born great writers; William Shakespeare, Charles Dickens, and J.K. Rowling, the writer of the Harry Potter books.

Nature
Around 5,000 years ago, the middle of the United Kingdom was covered with thick forests. Thousands of years ago, these woodlands were cleared by ancient farmers, and today only about 10 percent of the land left is forest.

The United Kingdom’s complex geology gives rise to a wide diversity of landscapes and a range of habitats for its animal and plant life.

Great Britain’s rugged mountains, like the Scottish Highlands, offer habitat that is relatively untouched by humans. The country’s 7,700 miles (12,429 kilometers) of shoreline, ranging from tall cliffs to beaches to marshes, also provide homes for wildlife such as seabirds and seals.

More History

Britain’s system of government has evolved over many centuries. Kings once ruled with advice from a council of religious leaders and nobles. That council eventually expanded into the Parliament, which now passes all the country’s laws. Today, the monarch (which can be a king or queen) has no real power and is a cultural figurehead.

The UK has been a leading trading nation for more than 500 years. In the 19th century, British industry and the industrial revolution helped make the country the most powerful nation in the world. It is still one of the strongest economies in the world.

The first Britons (United Kingdom residents) were the Picts, who came about 10,000 years ago. In the eighth century B.C., the Celts arrived from Europe and pushed the Picts north into Scotland. In A.D. 43, the Romans invaded and ruled over the land for nearly 400 years. They built many new infrastructures including roads, bathhouses, sewers, and large villas.

By the sixth century A.D., German peoples known as Angles, Jutes, and Saxons were moving into Britain. The Angles gave their name to England, and English people became known as the Anglo-Saxons. From the 900s to the 1400s, England was ruled over by Viking, Danish, and Norman invaders.

In 1485 the Welsh noble Henry Tudor claimed the English crown and became Henry VII, the first of five Tudor monarchs. Several important lines of kings and queens followed after.

By the 1800s, Britain was one of the most powerful nations in the world. Trade generated immense wealth, and the country built a huge overseas empire. But the early 20th century was a time of setbacks and chaos for Britain. Drained by World War I and II, Britain could no longer afford its empire, and most of its colonies became independent.

The UK has beautiful places to explore and rich history however it’s positioning in the world currently is unknown and in peril.

Thank you for reading, I hope you learnt something new today.

Sedona, Arizona, U.S.A

This post was inspired by my dear friend Ace: http://fearlessfreesoul.com

“Sedona is known as a spiritual mecca and global metaphysical epicenter. Talented healers, intuitive healers, artists and spiritual guides flock to Sedona. to assist in those seeking spiritual enlightenment. Take a trip to Mother Nature’s red-rock oasis and experience their life-transforming, soul-nourishing, awe-inspiring work in person. Sedona is a place you can go to for spiritual and personal enrichment of the mind, body and soul. From healing yoga studios, Myofascial Release practitioners, spas and salons to hypnotherapy and retreats, Sedona always has something to offer to the seeker of spiritual growth & pure enlightenment. The Sedona Metaphysical Spiritual Association is a great resource for learning about the spiritual and metaphysical side of Sedona.

What Makes Sedona So Special?
The majestic red rocks and lush, evergreen vegetation are two reasons for the unique energy of Sedona and its tangible regenerative and inspirational effects. The red-orange color of the rock is one of the most neuro stimulating of colors. It enhances creative thinking and problem solving. Because Sedona is framed year round by green, visitors are also bathed in sense of hope and renewal, regardless of the season. The spectacular trails and overlooks provide numerous opportunities for prayer, and contemplation. Sedona is also internationally known for the uplifting power of its Vortex meditation sites. Two aspects of those sites make Sedona truly special. First, within a very small geographical radius, you can easily access all the different types of vortexes (upflow/masculine/electric, inflow/feminine/magnetic, or combination /electromagnetic, etc.) Second, the Vortex sites are interwoven with the real world of a growing city. As a result, seekers have experiences in how to live their spirituality as they go through their daily lives. Rather than having to escape from civilization to find peace, visitors discover that Sedona’s splendor gives them insights for how to create an inner harmony they can maintain once at home.

Spiritual Healing
Sedona is a mecca for alternative healers, like the 10 practitioners who are part of Sacred Sedona Now. Living this close to the beauty of the land has inspired many profoundly holistic approaches to health. Our body temples are complex multi-dimensional organisms, and Sedona healers apply their gifts to every level of the human body/mind/spirit spectrum. You will benefit from their intuitive skills and compassionate touch as well as their intellectual training and hands-on experience. So, whether you’re currently troubled with health issues, or simply seeking more wellness, pleasure and balance in your life, a visit to one of these dedicated practitioners in Sedona could open up a whole new world for you. Sedona’s healers come from vast cultural backgrounds and traditions, from Native American to Eastern (Tibetan, East Indian, Oriental Medicine) to those with more Western medical backgrounds. The city’s bodyworkers range from structural integrators, chiropractors and deep tissue massage therapists who manipulate the physical structure of the body, to Reiki, acupuncture and other energy healing modalities. On the spiritual side, many of our Unity Chaplains are highly skilled in prayer healing and spiritual counseling services. At Unity of Sedona, for example, Chaplain Prayer Circles on the second Saturday of each month, provide an opportunity for those to experience the power of prayer by sitting in the center of a vortex as well as a drum circle for healing.

The Spirit of the Land

The natural beauty of Sedona is extraordinary from any perspective, but the closer you get, the deeper your experience will be. Special Sedona guides can transport you through the physical landscape and into the heart of the wild. Let the spirits of the land speak to you. Native Americans sharing their tribal wisdom, showing us how to live in harmony with the earth and all our relations. Some of the most profound spiritual experiences in Sedona are to be found out on the land. One example of divine spiritual counseling is Shamanic Healing with Anahata. She dives deep into inner exploration and soul expansion with high-performance coaching, group retreats, specialized healing sessions, private retreats and online education to support your personal intentions. Whether you are seeking core healing, spiritual awakening or soul guidance one can find that support in Sedona via many different types of healers that utilize the healing spirit of the land. Furthermore, many drug addicts and alcoholics come to Sedona to try and get sober because of the intense healing powers of the Red Rocks and Vortexes.

Sedona Vortexes Made Simple
Sedona Vortex sites are popular tourist attractions. What are these Sedona vortexes? Vortex sites are enhanced energy locations that facilitate prayer, meditation, mind/body healing, and exploring your relationship with your Soul and the divine. They are neither electric nor magnetic (although these words are often used to describe the vortexes, along with the other nomenclature such as masculine or feminine sites). The explanation for vortexes lies more at the boundaries of known science, rather than in electromagnetic descriptions. Also, many people struggling with addiction come to Sedona and visit vortexes for their healing modalities in the Arizona recovery space.

On a PBS program Nova, featured a breakthrough in physics called “String Theory” that is revolutionizing all of science on the same order of magnitude that Einstein’s discoveries did in the early 1900s. The key spiritual implications of super-strings is that the world’s top scientists agree that all things exist in a minimum of 10 or more dimensions. Simply stated, Vortex sites are locations having energy flows in those deeper dimensions that the Soul can soar on.

Upflow Vortexes, also called electric or masculine sites, have energy flows that help you soar to higher spiritual perspectives both for males and females alike. They enhance prayers or meditations for blending with the Universe, feeling one with the divine, or facing a problem from a Soul level. Inflow Vortexes (also called magnetic or feminine), have energy flows that help you go inward. In them you will be more successful with meditations or prayers about your life purposes or how to heal hurts in your past. There are also Combination Vortexes that have aspects of both energies. These allow the seeker to experience more advanced or in-depth spiritual skills and meditations.

A wide variety of lectures, texts, and guides are available through Sedona Monthly’s website as well as Spiritual Centers in Sedona to assist you in experiencing the power of Sedona’s Vortex sites. Give yourself the gift of tapping into Sedona’s vast potential for spiritual renewal, enlightenment & advancement.”

Source: https://www.sedonamonthly.com/2020/spiritual-sedona/

My Story, About The Author

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

“Hi there, I am a young human from the UK discovering what it means to be human, my soul purpose and what we are doing here on planet gaia. I’m a writer, philosopher, African Djembe drummer, gardener and plant lover, photographer, yogi, blogger and student of the universe who is searching for truth and knowledge. I love to laugh and have deep, meaningful conversations.

This blog is my therapy, it will evolve around research, spirituality, psychedelics, science, alternative healing, shamanism, astrology, plant medicine philosophy, astronomy, tattooing, photography and personal diary entries detailing my life journey. I needed a place to publish my thoughts into cyberspace for myself and perhaps for consolation.

I speak from my heart.

My early years consisted of a regular childhood, I grew up in the countryside with a small family. At school I experienced intense bullying at 14 which led me on to developing an eating disorder, OCD and to isolating myself in my bedroom to cope for four years until I left sixth form at 17 to go travelling. I was very academically inclined and athletic throughout school. I hid the eating disorder until it became skin and bone, then it was obvious; I never got help for it. The eating disorder and stress led me to loosing all my hair, which was my identity; I shaved it all off and wore a hat until it started growing back. I also was diagnosed with a rare condition called AMP (amplified musculoskeletal pain) on the scalp as I started having burning sensations on the crown of my head during this time. This led me to have a spiritual awakening, I questioned who I was without this hair I had cherished for so long, it was how I valued myself. I was traumatised and devastated, I suppressed it and didn’t talk for four years. I now was on a path of wanting to know who I am, where I come from, why I am here and was fed up with small talk and societal dialogue. Being isolated in my bedroom for four years enabled me to discover and research a diverse range of topics, I had a knowledge addiction and wanted to know as much as I could about this world and beyond; I devoted myself to researching day and night. This led me to an Ayahuasca (a psychedelic plant medicine that comes from the Amazon Rainforest in South America that enables one to heal and discover about ones self) documentary which infatuated me to plan to go to the Amazon Rainforest. My long-term vision was to travel Central America and South America from Mexico down to Peru and go to the Amazon Rainforest to study plant medicine, tribes, journalism, shamanism and to become a shaman’s apprentice. This medicine had called me and I wanted to listen to that call. I was waiting until I was 18 to go to Peru to work at a retreat centre in the jungle all this time, I wanted to go home, which felt like Peru. I just wanted to leave the past behind me, discover who I am and heal. I was running away from myself. I had so many aspirations to help humanity and myself, I had the world in my hands. Before I thought I was going to the jungle I experimented with psychedelics and had an ongoing meditation practice everyday to try and further my understanding of myself and the universe, which ultimately are one and the same – microcosm of the macrocosm.

I had a sense of purity within me, having isolated myself during my teenage years. All this changed when I went out into the world.

At 17, I was waiting to go to the Amazon Rainforest and went to The Netherlands to do a house keeping internship and Spain to do an eco-project in the mountains. For the first time my depression was eased and travelling opened my eyes to different ways of living and cultures. My eating disorder eased up as I was in a new environment, away from all the pain of the UK and I met some beautiful people from all around the world. I loved being free, no one knew me, I could be who I wanted to be and be independent. However, the retreat centre went bankrupt, I lost the money I saved up for the trip and my flights. I was again, devastated.

In 2018 I got a job at the local theatre cafe with my cousin, however I felt like a fish out of water and dreaded each day. I decided to go travelling to The Netherlands and around Europe and came back to England a year and a half later traumatised and I was never the same again.

Back In England in 2019 I was left with the shell of a person who once was. I somehow managed to work last year to save myself from being alone in my bedroom in a village and trying to kill myself. I tried to take my life four times last year due to severe trauma and lost the job due to not being able to work anymore, slurring words and not being able to walk up and down stairs to get stock with severe chronic body pain.

Throughout 2019 I have tried to heal myself through taking up African Djemebe drumming, yoga, spiritual healing, shamanism, soul retrieval work, supplements, gong baths, massages, reiki, counselling and many other avenues to no avail. I am getting worse and don’t know what to do anymore.

Meeting my partner at the end of August 2019 was a profound moment. On the way to work my partner was walking towards me down a street we will never forget. That day I prayed for an angel after my meditation that morning for help. I beamed a smile at him, our eyes met and he saw a portal of white light around me, he didn’t see me. I was planning that afternoon, after work, to kill myself by laying on train tracks and he was going down a slippery slope with addiction. We saved each other, in fact my partner has saved me many times over and over this past year. This beautiful man has been to the depths of hell and back with me, I will forever be grateful. He took care of me when no one else did, showed me fun, let me be myself, show my shadow side to and showed compassion, he mades my heart pound and laugh hard.

In October 2019 I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, a chronic pain condition with many symptoms including brain fog, chronic fatigue and cognitive problems. I now had a concept to understand why I experience chronic burning pain all over my body.

Where I am at now is: addicted to three pharmaceuticals (Pregablin, Diazepam and Zopiclone), recovering from being on many different medications and none of them working, constant suicidal ideations and thoughts as the pain I deal with is unbearable, I have problems socialising as I am in agonising pain every day, it’s hard to make friends as I am too unstable, social anxiety and depression from all this makes it harder for me to engage with people, it seems to be that the medications have damaged my brain, intense memory loss and amnesia, my intelligence and abilities have declined over the past year and it is distressing to witness this and the decaying of yourself. I tried to wean off the pharmaceuticals twice over the year but it was unbearable to deal with the withdrawals which included psychosis and I couldn’t handle it. I am left with being daily distressed, muscle tremors, brain fog, cognitive problems, fatigue, body pain like burning acid all over with knives jabbing over my body (fibromyalgia), weakness, sensitivity to light and sound, muscle tremors, dissociation, manic mood, flat mood, PTSD, anxiety, flashbacks, see tracers in my visual field of past moving objects, three seconds of someone’s previous position traced; I can see where someone has previously been. I feel I don’t have support and very unstable. Everything including my own brain feels claustrophobic and fuzzy. My former self is dying and I want to save myself before I get worse which I see happening painfully clearly, blurry vision, breathing problems, insomnia, shaking, headaches, eye pain, dulled psychic and other senses, delirium, eating disorder coming back as a coping mechanism, paralysing fear of the world and my own mind and endless side effects from medications. I feel like I am in a hell or purgatory realm. I feel like my soul has left my body or parts of it and disorientated. It feels like I am not here anymore, I find myself dazed off and zombie-like and then come back to this reality. I could cry rivers of tears that are suppressed that I cannot cry. I have memory blanks sometimes where I don’t recognise where I am fully or who I am. Reality is blurry. I feel on edge and hyperactivity a lot of the time with manic states. I cannot feel emotion, it is like being trapped in a numb decaying body. I can very rarely cry or feel much except pain. No mood, completely flat-lined, transparent, like a ghost. My breathing is weak, there is third eye pressure and I feel fatigued all of the time. I feel like I could collapse at any moment. I have racy thoughts that feel uncontrollable. Spiritual abilities have awakened, claircognizance; I know when things will happen or information about events or people. I know by sensing peoples energy when they are lying or putting up a block. Sometimes I can sense someone’s aura or energetic field. I know how someone is feeling just by being with them or from a distance. I feel detached from the world, depersonalized, derealized, lost in a dream like state with no ground or foundation. Nothing feels real. The world feels grey and empty. It feels as if I have been on a hard drug for months like speed even though I haven’t. I can only eat under ten foods as I cannot tolerate anything else and have allergies which is quite dull and lacks in diversity i. Strung out. On edge. Every day is panic for me. Survival mode. I have so much to give to the world and experience, but I cannot live like this, it is hell and unbearable. I know something has gone wrong in my body, a big neuro-chemical imbalance that makes me feel like I am trapped in a permanent state of a drug comedown. I’m scared. There is barely pleasure, food does not taste the same, it tastes like plastic. People sometimes do not appear real, like plastic and giving a hug feels like someone is hugging a ghost. I wake in so much pain and go to sleep in so much pain. I have trouble sleeping and am using sleeping pills. I feel trapped in a dark realm. I think my brains receptors are imbalanced, my precious, developing brain up.. alongside having depression for many years as a teenager with trauma, stress, sleep deprivation and sleeping rough. The NHS (UK’s healthcare system) gave me no help, they didn’t support me; I am left on my own with pills given to me and no option for talking therapy in the beginning, terrible experiences with mental health services, no help after suicide attempts and waiting for appointments and getting nothing from them, just filling out forms and getting no where. Round and round in circles.

In October 2019 I was told by a reiki master and some pyschics that I am to become a shaman in this lifetime and my spirit animal is the Jaguar. I have a hard path ahead of me. The shaman is a medicine man or woman that is regarded as having access to, and influence in, the world of good and evil spirits, being able to heal people and enter altered states, but before that he has to go on an initiation process to cure himself to be able to help others. I have to put myself back together. In March 2020 a medium at a spiritual event told me I am a medium/clairvoyant/shaman and that I had a grandmother on the other side, in the spirit world. In this same month I was also told, somehow it came up, that on my dad’s side, my great great grandmother, was a “quack” which means someone who deals with herbal medicine, she could “see things” and people went to her if they had a problem.

As of August 2020, I am living with my partner in a city in England trying to get through each day during this global dismemberment (covid-19 hoax pandemic). I focus on photography, blogging, meditation, yoga, researching, getting out into nature, watching videos from various platforms, trying to stay alive, laughing, smiling through the intolerable pain and trying to see and bring my attention to the beauty in life.

It is difficult to imagine a future swamped in this hazy cloud of fog. I don’t know what is happening.

If I am a survivor in the future, I want to be able to initiate my personal and partner’s goals of writing books, starting a holistic healing centre for people with mental health issues, addiction and existential crises, DJ and bring more diverse hybrid music to this world, be a loving strong force, travel, heal, love myself more, continue on the path of enlightenment, grow within myself, gain knowledge, study different topics, become a shamans apprentice, participate in an Ayahuasca ceremony, use plant medicine, speak truth, make documentaries, report on unreported issues in the world, undergo counsilling for my healing, become a humble, kind and a strong human woman and partner and to fulfil my purpose of becoming a shaman (a spiritual healer/medicine woman/medium).

The planet is going through a dismemberment, we are going through a personal dismemberment. An ending is also a beginning. I pray we awaken and create a new way of life for us all in this human family.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story and best wishes on your path home to the light. I hope this blog enlightens, inspires and awakens you. Blessed.

Love is the answer.

Have a good life,

Umba

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