●《Soul》 When I’m melanchoic or feel rather lonely, sometimes I make my way down the street, put headphones on my eyes, put a beautiful tune on that takes me to another place through the vibrations and frequencies, smile and take myself to another place in my mind..
Today I listened to this; a blissful tune – especially the endingish: https://youtu.be/R7qhVQK9_-Q 《Soul》●
《Soul》 Things are the same, if not getting worse. I am loosing my ability to walk due to the fibromyalgia and pharmaceuticals which are destroying my gut-lining and seemingly my body. Everyday is severe torture to move and my body is screaming at me with acid burning pain. I can’t sleep properly, I can’t talk properly (slurring words and not remembering words), I can’t move some days, I can’t walk very well and I might loose that, high anxiety, depression, trauma still lingers through the numbness of the pills, I can’t breathe properly, I have allergic reactions to more foods (I eat potato and a few other things) which is severely depressing, feel nothing, some other painful personal things.. I wish I wasn’t here but I know why, my mission to inspire people through my words is inspiring others, allowing them to be themselves. I don’t feel like I have long left here but I keep laughing and smiling.. that’s all I have left now to keep going. 《Soul》
《Dear soul》~ My mind is a mess, but I carry on with this life’s song. Brain overload. Anxiety crippling. Brain zaps of pain. Reality appears grainy. I laugh so much I lose myself through the pain. The world appears insane. I don’t know anymore. You took me on a crazy trip dear soul. All I want is to be whole. I yearn to return home to my home planet where love and compassion swims through the ether. Ahhhhh. 《 Soul》
《Dear soul》~ Feeling caged up amongst these four walls during this lockdown 3.0 in the UK. However I am trying to work on changing my perspective about this situation. I’m using this time to go within myself and do the best I can with what I have; using this time to research and build up the knowledge library, build my blog and just be; whatever that means to me now. The world is a stage and stepping out of the three dimensional plane and finding my feet in the fifth dimension; seeing and rising above the drama and chaos. Life is painful but we carry on blessed soul on our mission here.《Soul》